An Open Letter to my Best friends

Dear Best Friends,

Hey guys, I know it's been a while. I’m not very keen in mentioning you both here in this blog, despite the fact that you both are the ones who actually given immense influence in who I turned out to be. We’ve been great buddies for a very long time and while I’m beating the keyboard now, I’m pondering about how we grow up so fast! 

The last thing I remembered are those squandered hours spent in Coccyx and walking aimlessly in places at night where you both talked of vampires and ghost stories and resident evil. I cannot understand how the three of us became best friends.  First off, I am a girl and you guys are so not my intellectual equal. You guys are the smartest and coolest people I know so far and I can’t find people like you anywhere this past three years that we’ve been plopped to distant regions in the country. Yet you’ve been there for me to cheer me up; you’ve seen me at my worst and were there through it all.

Yes, I know, you don’t want all this cheesy stuff. I get that so I’ll make this as unrevealing, earmarked and spunky sounding as I possibly can. 

You were sometimes annoying, but I overlooked that. It’s a guy thing, I suppose. And I still cannot forget that time when we were walking along a path walk of our high school where you told me that I am your ‘softener’. And you know what, that sounded like a compliment but it really was an insult because it implied that I was weak. You don’t know this but it ringed in my ear and I smirked at such. You know how a feminist I am.

I realize that we have touched each other’s lives in ways we never imagined. I became such a tomboy and yes, you both were sometimes such a woman, but I actually find it quite adorable. Especially you Jay, you worship ANTM for Pete’s sake and Rey, you whine about a lot of things. Don’t worry, I absolutely understand. 

We’ve all decided to pursue our education and fate plonked us in different places, yet as what Rey said, “Kate, don’t worry. Even though we’re very far from each other, we’re still under the same sky, the same moon looking at the same stars.” How comforting does that sound coming from the mouth of an Alpha male, huh? And Jay, despite your being in another world, full of rich, more interesting people, you’ve not forgotten us. Thanks for visiting us whenever your schedule could manage it. 

Hmm. I will always remember the nights, the walks, the conversations that actually made sense, the hitting, the butt-slapping, and the cornstarch incident, the pushing, the cries, the hugs, the laughter, difference in religious persuasions and of course, the misunderstandings that never get the best of us and confusion of feelings. No matter how many text messages got ignored, how many times I showed up late, no matter how many times I had been awkward and totally disagreeable and blunt, you guys were some sort of strength to me.  You made me forgot the rifts at home even though I don’t tell those to you in a more descriptive manner that you would come to understand. 

I know that no matter how far you both are from me, you’ll be my force. You always have and always will mean so much to me, more than you know. I am grown now. We are grown now. And what we have are all but memories of the past. 

Everything just feels so empty sometimes. My school is large and taciturn. It's hard when I'm walking from class to class, and I can't help but remember two years ago, everything seemed so perfect, I had friends who really understood me. 

The moving, almost repetitive goodbyes, we always have whenever we part is hilarious to think about but when those things actually happen, I feel nothing near amusement. As I think about it more and more, I truly believe we really do stick up to each other. Distance will weaken our bond but will not tear us down.

Okay, I can write a diatribe about us but I will just end here.

Sincerely, 

Kate