Senior Year Approaching

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It's a bad state to wake up to: menstrual cramps, dizziness, dry, flaky skin, still tired eyes. I am feeling very terrible. But I'm not gonna make that thwart my deep desire to express how excited I am for senior year to come.

In a matter of two weeks, I will be back to school again. Life is moving so quickly before my eyes. I have one year left in college. While I am pretty happy to have survived, a small part of me is a little sad to see these years slip away. I have spent my three years in college being the goody-two-shoes, nicey pants girl. I suffered an insane amount last year, when I wasn't able to maintain my WGA and garnered only the bronze medal instead of silver. But I built myself back up from that defeat. I watched as my whole world crumbled to the ground, but I kept moving forward. There's more to life that just grades.

I basically have no social life, except for my five classmates who I consider as my friends after three years in campus. I have avoided every party I was invited to, turned down dating opportunities, and shied away from opportunities to be happy because I'm just too damn scared to be out of my comfort zone. This is my biggest regret.

So instead of complaining about how my life never seems to work out the way I want, I am going to do something about it., I have created a bucket list before I get my ass dragged out of the campus and leave the university. Here it is:

1. Attend all college and ASSEM hosted parties including acquaintance and Christmas parties;
2. Study in main library every freakin' friday;
3. Go to every SC sponsored event on campus;
4. Own three dresses or skirts and actually wear them;
5. Write my last undergrad column for The Forum or Dimensions;
6. Win or earn something out of writing;
7. Write the best thesis on Systemic Functional Linguistics using the Marxist Feminist Criticism;
8. Graduate with distinction - hopefully a laude status;
9. Finish my OJT and Practice Teaching;
10. Actually graduate!

Okay, now I can go back to Asana.