Memo to Self: Get back to work

Dear irrational self,

I don’t see how you allow yourself to be like this. What the hell are you doing? You are well aware that it is midterm week. You know what happens during this time of the semester, right? You know that you should be allotting the next days and nights to studying what you never learnt and review the things you have somehow retained in your mottled, obscure and persistently diverting mind. But you are such a headstrong girl. Too headstrong, I suppose, that you contradict every thought of action that arouse from your common sense. You succumb to the cheap trick of procrastination.  You understand that if you bomb out the examinations, you will be in too much trouble. You will lose your running for honors, disappoint your parents and your mentors and it will do no good to your already flunked out self-esteem.

You spent the whole night watching chick flicks. After which you slept. I expected that after this trip to neverland, you would go back to your desk and actually study, but to no avail. Instead, you yielded to Endymion, to John Keats – a topic that would never appear on the test. You let those silly diversions of yours overcome your priorities. You are ruining your life with such delusions of adequacy. You drink cups of coffee to keep you through all-night but you are still unproductive. Why sit there idle?  You easily get sidetracked by your thoughts. Yes, you scribble them down, in the hopes that when you immortalize them, they would stop bothering you but still, one line becomes a sentence and a sentence turns into a diatribe. You are so inspired to do these things, but this is not the time for them. These won’t get you through the examinations. Please help yourself. Stop your creative juices from spilling all over your sanity at once, or better yet, put your delusions and caprice in the backseat if you have any sense of self preservation.

Regrets, you will have them later if you don’t stop right now. The time is running out. You must move. Nothings is achieved when you don’t work on it, lest start it. There is no failure except in no longer trying. Be patient. Persevere. These two combined have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish. It’s just one week anyway, after this, you are free to do whatever you please. So please, stop writing this shit and get back to work.

Sincerely,

Your rational self