18th Birthday

Every girl dreams of this day to come. It's my 18th birthday today. And no, this is not just another birthday. This is also the last day of my 40 days of my reinvention. Now that it's finally over, I'm sitting here with profound peace in my heart and a big grin in my face. I feel so alive.

I remember when I was young I used to play with Apple, and seeing her older sister, Dona prepare for her debut bash, she was all glowing and in high spirits then, so happy to be finally eighteen and legal in every sense of the word. Back then, I was a tomboy. I despise the activity of putting effort on such rubbish party. For me, eighteenth birthday is "just another birthday."


But now that it's happening to me, I could barely believe it. I'm eighteen and what's up next? Me leaving the teen era in an instant and eventually metamorphosize into a twenty something? I still feel like a child, skillfully imprudent, bounded free and youthful. I still feel the extreme disappointment of having a scoop of ice cream fall from the cone. Life is a scary ride and it does not fail to surprise me every waking moment.


There are a lot of things I carry in my luggage as I leave seventeen. I've always planned to be financially independent from my parents at this point in time, but as much as I wanted to I still can't. However, because I now have work I can partially support myself now and that's a good thing. A lot of opportunities unbolted and I'm putting myself out there.


What's the next step for me now? Is it to drive away and be free? Yes, maybe. I don't know what my future holds for me but I'm scared to death. Life feels so rapid, so constant. I can't believe 17 years had gone by.


Last midnight, at exactly 12. My phone started to beat interminably. My best friends, classmates and closest friends remember my birthday. And when I woke up, fifteen messages unread... I feel the love. I am so happy.

I am smiling, 

I am 18 today.

I am no longer crying,

All my problems have gone away.

It's my 18th Birthday.

My best friends,

Are not here with me,

But they're in my heart,

where they'll forever be.

On my 18th Birthday.

My little cousins,

have been here today,

They have made me laugh and smile,

In every single way.

For my 18th Birthday.

I am a quiet person to be truthful,

I never had many new friends at school.

I wasn't always the happiest person in my class,

But today,

It's my 18th Birthday,

and the bad times are in the past.

I look around me now,

I realize who I really am.

I am a happy young lady,

I can't work out how,

I have all I ever wanted.

And some day maybe.

You'll love me like I love you all.

It's my 18th Birthday.

Look at what I've got,

it might not be a lot.

But it's all I can ask for,

I'd never want more.

My best friends Jay and Rey,

My friends Dhary and Pearl.

The people I really care about, 

My family, my friends.

It's my 18th birthday.

And now i will say,

I love you all in every way.

Thank you for making this one of the best days ever,

I'll never hate you, no never.

Even though you're not here right now,

I love you lots, so hard to explain how.

It's my 18th Birthday.

Thank you for being here every single day.

Candles burning, colorful balloons in the air, fragrant flowers, multilayered vanilla cake, gorgeous dress and a tiara…I don't have them. This is my debut. This is where my life begins.